Monday, February 13, 2012

Butterscotch - R.I.P.

Dear Blogspotters,

I've been very quiet lately, and there are a couple of reasons. The other part I will write about when I find the strength, but this part is about our beloved Butterscotch. We had to have him put down today. It's been a horrible day, but what a loving and outstanding cat he was. I'd like to tell you about him.



Well, as you see from this photo, he was a very handsome cat. We have had him since Aug of 2003, when we lived in Tillamook Oregon. I call him "The best thing I ever got at a yard sale". He was. He was very loving, funny, SMART. He was also a kind of caregiver/nurse to my husband, "Speavers" who is battling stage 4 renal cell carcinoma (kidney cancer). He used to sit on the bed, next to my husband when he was looking thru his baskets of medications he took every day. As if he was a "Nurse", checking in on him to make sure he was doing things "right". I used to call him "Nancy Nurse" even though he was a boy ('cuz that's what my Mom used to call me, because I've also always been is also a nurturer).

Butterscotch was always a "big cat", I thought (he weighed between #10-12, which was bigger than any cat I've ever owned), but these last nearly two weeks, he'd be loosing weight, not eating or drinking, etc. I don't want to go into details but he was definitely sick. (He only weighed about 1/2 that this morning when we took him to the Vet).

They knew him at our Vet, and said by looking at him, that he wasn't doing well. We are not financially able to run hundreds of dollars of tests to see what was the matter with him other than he was very old (we have no clue how old he was when we got him 8.5 years ago, but definitely an adult cat). The doctor said without running lots of tests on him, it could be many things, actually- everything from kidney failure to cancer/tumors to diabetes. (I thought "the same things my husband has issues with!") We didn't want to see him suffer, so we had him put to sleep. We were with him, and it was very peaceful, which I'm Thankful for.

We brought him home to be buried in our garden. I will make a marker for him at some point. My husband has agreed to bury him for me. I don't think I could do that.

Getting To Know Our Cat- Some Trivia About Butterscotch:

*He came with the name and it suited him. His nicknames were many-- even had a "people" name, of "Scotty". (Also called him Scratchers, Buttercup, etc).


*Was never a very "playful" cat. I mean, you could stick a piece of yarn on his head and it would just dangle there, and he would just purr and go to sleep- all cozy and "whateveh' Mom". But last year I caught him PLAYING with a hair tie on the floor... I ever video'd it because it was so "un Scotty". Guess he was too "cool" to do CAT THINGS, like playing. (He wasn't lazy, just wasn't "cat" I think) Here is the only clip I have of him at his silly hair-tie game.. what a silly boy!



*He didn't like milk or tuna!! (I thought all cats did!) but LOVED--I kid you not: strawberry banana yogurt (small spoons full as s treat sometimes), canned corn juice (yes, he was silly) and FRUIT! He adored drinking the juice out of a cantaloupe and his fave-- watermelon. Silly, silly Boy!


*He was an un-neutered male and NEVER "sprayed" in the house...ever! He didn't even know he was a cat, we think. (He was strictly an indoor cat the whole time we had him)


*OH- and here's a kicker-- he LOVED TO TAKE BATHS AND SHOWERS!!!!! There was a time when he was younger and I heard him meowing in the bathroom when I was taking a shower-- I thought "Oh, the cats in here to keep me company" (I was washing my hair). I stepped back in the shower and almost TRIPPED on him, because he was IN the shower with me, purring, walking around... like he wanted to take a shower WITH me. I didn't know what to think, I just laughed and picked him up and put him outside the shower (again, he's a long haired cat, so you can image what he looked like all wet...sheesh) and said, "Scotty, you are too big to take a shower with Mommy...scoot!"

That was our boy, Butterscotch.

I told him on the way to the Vets today (I had him in cage, but he didn't mind sitting on your lap in the car, he didn't mind them at all) that he could sit on the lap of angels when he got to Heaven, maybe; but please don't try and take a shower with them.

I will be back to blog sometime soon. I just need some "us" time to heal for a bit.



Oh, and our dog, Hershey doesn't quite know what to think of this yet, but he's looking for his cat. (Butterscotch was the Alpha in that relationship as we got Hershey, as a small puppy,in the summer of 2007, but is now a 70# choc lab , so Butterscotch WAS the "big brother" I guess, but not any more of course- but sure acts like it. Over all they got along REALLY well)

Thank you for reading this. I am 48 years old now and I've never had to to have an animal die or put to sleep. It's hard.








Updated little later in the day, 2/13/12- I just came across this "typical" shot of Butterscotch, sitting all lazy on whatever I'm sewing (usually quilting) on Jan 20th of this year... I was preparing a post for my first guest post over at The Turquoise Piano. I'm not sure why I didn't post the photo (probably because the Tut was photo-heavy) but yes, he was a typical cat- always sitting on quilting/sewing projects. This one makes me smile.


Feb 15, 2012
The outpouring of sympathy and support over our loss of our beloved Butterscotch has really touched our hearts. Thank you SO much. He was a wonderful cat, and it was a joy to have him in our lives for as long as we did. I guess I've never pointed out but in the past, I've never had a cat for over 8 years in my life; and he was such a beloved pet, it's been hard for us all. Thank you again for your emotional support.

Sincerely,
Suzanne, Speavers (Kevin) and Hershey (our choc lab) and Sarah (our grown daughter who misses Scotty so much too, even though she's moved out and on her own now)

34 comments:

  1. Oh Suzanne,

    I am so sorry that you are hurting. I know your heart is breaking now over Butterscotch but remember how you gave him a good home, good treats, love and attention. why would anyone sell that precious animal at a yard sale. Well, your gain, their loss.
    He is in God's lap now purring away knowing that he will see you again someday.

    Hugs,

    ♥charlotte

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    1. Thank you Charlotte. Actually he wasn't being SOLD. Here was this super friend big fluffy cat sitting on the lap of my daughter who was little at the time (about 10) and purring, nudging her, etc and I had asked the lady for a price on a table. When she same back with info I said, "Forget about the table, how much for your CAT?!" (joking) She told me he had been ABANDONED by the neighbor and found his way over to their house and they couldn't keep him because of her hub's allergies but were feeding him until they could find a home.

      Hubs, kiddo and I went and prayed at a park for THREE HOURS about taking this cat home with us (we had told her to keep him and we'd be back with a decision) We knew we might have to move because landlady said "no pets" but she did agree, so we took him. I was in TEARS when I heard someone would knowingly leave a pet like Butterscotch behind.

      Mr. Personality had us from the first purr and snuggle.

      Yes, still the "best thing I ever got at a yard sale".

      ~Suz

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  2. Suzanne--condolences on your loss. I have been through something similar with our dog. It's really hard. Keep his memories close.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Ann. I'm very sorry for your loss with your dog too.

      Memories are coming closer.

      God Bless,
      Suzanne & Family

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  3. I want you to know how sorry I am for your loss. Bless your heart....I could feel the pain through your words.

    I am visiting my youngest daughter (who is pregnant with Quads!) and we just returned from taking her soon to be 20 year old to the vet. She has thyroid disease and is on medication. To be so elderly she is doing well. A 20 year old cat is like a 96 year old 'human' in years. The day will come when she will leave us. Amber gpt her when she was 7 years old....and she will soon be 27!

    I know you and your chocolate lab will comfort each other. It is funny because Amber has a chocolate lab too.

    I must be new to your blog but I admire your spirit......Where did I find your blog?? I think from someone else's....on their side bar or maybe from a comment you left.

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    1. Thank you for sharing your story, Linda. 20 years old is a very long lived cat- you've been Blessed...wow! I'm sorry she isn't in the best health though, but like you said, she's "96". Quite the Matriarch I think.

      Congrats on your quads...sakes alive! I"ll have to check out your blog to learn more of THAT happy Blessing. Thanks for the smile for that news.

      God Bless you all and your youngest daughter,
      Suzanne & Family

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  4. It's never easy to lose a pet...they are so much a part of our family. When we lost our lovely Jack a few months ago...I prayed to know if we would have our golden retriever back with us in Heaven. And I received a warm feeling that we will have that opportunity. It was a comforting thought.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Shirley.

      I'm very sorry to hear of your loss of Jack a few months ago too.

      One day we will know them again, if in Heaven.

      God Bless you all,
      Suzanne & Family

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  5. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had "furry babies" all my life, and have had to go through what you're dealing with now a few times; the last being my 20-year old cat Maggie, who I had for most of her life. It's such a difficult decision to make, and it is so sad to say good-bye. Just try to remember the wonderful life you gave Butterscotch, and know that she will always live in in your heart.

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    1. Thank you Deborah. It seems you've had to go through it a few times, so which I'm sorry to hear, but I see that your heart heals and the sweet memories remain. That's a comfort to me.

      God Bless you,
      Suzanne & Family

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  6. So sorry for your loss. I remember how sad it was when we had to put our lab down a few years ago, and how hard it was for the new puppy lab to figure out what happened to his friend. tough stuff, for sure. What a lovely tribute to him this post was. It sounds like he had a wonderful life with people (and a lab) who loved him!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words Courtney. I'm sorry about the loss of your lab a few years ago, too.

      I'm glad we were matched up in the Valentine's Exchange at the other blog- you are a very sweet person.

      Sincerely,
      Suzanne & Family

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  7. my heart is breaking for you!!! So many hugs to you..Our dog is 16 and I don't know what we will do or how the kids will do when its time....WISH I could hug you for real!!!
    Just try to remember the fun times...
    Hugs,
    Karin

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    1. Thank you Karin. I'm going backwards with posts and replying to each of you here on my blog. You wrote the next day to "check in".

      You are a good friend.

      Oh, I'm starting to smile more now...how could I not? I think I've shared what a NUT Scotty was! ...silly puss!

      God Bless you,
      Suzanne & Family

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  8. So sorry to hear about Butterscotch! Yep, it is tough, sounds like a great cat..I have never heard of one eating fruit! I am sure he was a great comfort to you and your husband. You did the right thing, with an older cat, there usually is not anything you can do, I have done the tons of test route before, and it only worked with one cat that was young and need surgery to remove a toy mouse from his bowel. The bible says there is animals in heaven how great is that! I will tell you that for a long time you will see butterscotch out of the corner of your eye, sad and sweet at the same time. Take time to heal!

    Carol

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    1. Thank you also, Carol. There was sooo much more I wanted to do at your Dress Form Ball, but as you see, I was not quite in the frame of mind to blog for a couple of weeks now (he was ill before he passed).

      I'm glad you your cat had a chance with an operation, that is a Blessing.

      Yup, a real test for me this summer will be eating fruit again, all juicy yummy, and not having Butterscotch begging to climb into my lap to lick the rind. (He was so silly)

      God Bless you,
      Suzanne & Family

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  9. Oh Suzanne!
    I am so saddened to hear about your loss. I went through the EXACT same experience last spring and it was a very difficult time. I agonized over the decision, but I understood that I was the one who had to make the choice for my kitty cat Kit Kat - that was my job as his mom to take care of him. And that's what I did until the very end. He was 20 when he passed and lived a good long life in many home throughout the way. It was a hard time especially for my girls as this was their first experience with loss. I still miss that old guy. It does get easier. The relief of knowing he is no longer suffered will sink in and you will come to feel more of a sense of peace then knowing you did what you had to do for your friend. Praying for you -
    Stacey

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Stacey. I'm sorry to hear about Kit Kat too.

      This is all so new/raw/icky feeling, but I'm starting to smile when I talk about Scotty and the special "nut" that he was.

      Love endures.
      Sincerely, Suzanne & Family

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  10. I'm so sorry for loss, Suz. I know that animals can become like family members and it is hard to say goodbye. Thinking about you!

    Kelli

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    1. Thank you, Kelli. Yes, it was a very rough time, and there was so much I wanted to share on my blog as my birthday was the 7th, and good things were happening, but the sadness of my then ill/dying cat, really didn't have me feeling like blogging at all.

      I will return, in time, and I will have the comfort to know that I have friends in BlogLand that truly CARE.

      Sincerely,
      Suzanne & Family

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  11. So sorry Suzanne for the loss of your precious Butterschotch. I know that pain all too well. In 2008 I lost my mixed up black lab Blizzard. He was almost 16 when he passed and I was lucky enough to have him for almost 15 of those years. He was my bestest friend in the world and I still cry about loosing him. Sadly 5 weeks later to the day we lost our 17yr old cat and on Christmas day 2008 our other dog Sandy was put down. It was a tough year but one of the things that got me through was this poem that I'd like to share with you.
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    The Rainbow Bridge

    There is a place connecting Heaven and Earth. It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of its many colors. Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows, hills and valleys with lush green grass.
    When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place. There is always food, water, and warm spring weather. The old frail animals are young again and those who are maimed made whole again. They play all day with each other.
    There is only one thing missing, they are not with their special person who loved them on Earth. So each day they run and play until the day comes when one of them suddenly stops playing and looks up. The nose twitches! The ears are up! And suddenly this one runs from the group.
    You have been seen and when you and your special friend meet, you take him or her into your arms and embrace. Your face is kissed again and again and again, and you look once more into the eyes of your trusting pet.
    Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together, never again to be separated.

    With my most sincere sympathy...Barbara

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    1. Thank you for the link to the Rainbow Bridge poem, Barbara.

      I'm so sorry to hear of your losses too. As I wrote above, I've never had to go thru the loss of a pet- so this time it's ultra hard. But with supportive friends, family and blog readers/friends, I will heal.

      God Bless you,
      Suzanne & Family

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  12. Oh no. I'm so sorry, you even have me crying. Until I read about the baths and showers and I laughed WHILE I cried. So sorry for your loss. :(

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    1. Hello Adrianne,

      Yes, the tears and laughter are coming after our loss. I haven't felt like laughing much in these last two days, but when I think of the silliness of Butterscotch and the joy he brought, how could I help it? He was a wonderful pet.

      Sincerely, Suzanne & Family

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  13. Oh Suzanne! I had checked your blog several times and hand"t seen an update, so sorry to hear about your beautiful cat! I could barely type the words on my blog, it"s been so painful here. I tried to go to work today but got sent home...never have I cried so much. Thinking of you and hoping we both find comfort! You take care - aren't cats just the funniest things? Love hearing about Butterscotch - I love cats and she was so beautiful.

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    1. Terry, I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of Storm (your lovely dog) on the very same day.

      He was a very special cat to us, as Storm was to you. It's sooo hard, but in time, we will smile again.

      Yours sincerely,
      Suzanne

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  14. just checking on you today hun, hope you are hanging in there?
    Hugs,
    karin

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    1. Dear Blog-Buddy O' Mine, Karin,
      Thank you for checking in. We are working thru the pain.

      Today we are burying Butterscotch in our yard/garden, here at the church. (We live in the caretaker's house here at our Catholic Church). I will make a simple stone/marker for him when I can create again.

      Your friend,
      Suzanne & Family

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  15. Suzanne...so sorry for your loss. I've been a dog person all of my life. Two years ago my sons brought Cookie home from the Food Lion (I call her my "free-$400 cat" after the vet bills for shots, etc!). We love us some Cookie... she is my company all day long and is one of the most loving pets I've ever had. Now we can't imagine how we got along without her!

    And she likes her daily shower, too. She sits outside of the bathroom door every morning while my boys get ready for school and meows (the only time she "says" a peep!) until you let her in the shower! It's the wierdest thing! I always thought cats hated water.. and she will not go outside if it's raining.

    Hope you're feeling better soon!

    Lora

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    1. Thank you Lora. You and everyone has been so supportive.

      There is actually more to my emotional pain due with the loss of this pet, but I will have to share that at another time.

      Yes, your cat was "weird" like Scotty- loving water :) Scotty loved to be in the water, and we can't get our choc lab (which usually LOVE water) to get ANYWHERE near it (even for a bath).

      God Bless you for taking the time to comment. It means so much to us.

      Sincerely,
      Suzanne & Family

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  16. I am very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is just as hard as losing a family member, I think. Cats are so precious and love you no matter what. I'm glad he lived a good life and he was lucky to have been loved so much!

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  17. Hi Suzanne, Something called me to visit your blog today, it's been a while. I am oh so sorry to hear of your loss. My own 13 year old girl (an american eskimo) is not doing well lately. We have seen signs of something brewing within her lately, and although she is not in pain at the moment, I know that time if fast creeping up to let her go. Your post brought me to tears because it is so evident how much you loved your kitty (and still do). I pray that with each passing day, the pain gets a bit easier to handle. May your love for him live on.
    Your friend over at Tiaras & Bowties,
    Kim

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  18. Butterscotch was a handsome boy indeed..I do understand what its like to loose a beloved pet. Our "Kona Dog" passed away 4 years ago and we still miss her. Pets brings so much happiness to your life's they always seem to know when we are not feeling well.
    Butterscotch brought you such joy and what gift that way.
    Really big hugs for you..Elizabeth

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  19. I just read your blog and feel your pain. I've had pets and there was such fresh sorrow whenever one died. I've had two cats that lived until 18 and 21 years old. I swear they lived on love. The one thing I've learned is to let them go when it's time for them, not because I don't have the guts to make the decision and put a poor animal out of its misery. It needs to be about them, not me. Pets are such a joy. I'm so sorry.

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